Young 'beautiful' love, indeed.

After a complete dark sad post, I just want to share something positive this time. It is about a person who is really a blessing to me.

I met him when I transferred school back in my junior high year. There's nothing really noticeable about him in the first two weeks of the class except his undeniably good looks and his glasses. He was just this typical-outgoing-boy while I was this normal-silent-type-girl. Months pass by when things started to fall into place. Fast forward, we eventually became more than friends but less than lovers. Our classmates called him Sun and I'm the Moon. He really is a "sun" to me, the one who light up the darkness in my world. Sounds cheesy but true. I became a better version of myself because of him and of course my new friends that I have also met in that school.

Young love, indeed.

Little did I know that he will become so important to me. The boy who makes beautiful moments in my life every time that we're together. Those butterflies in the stomach, the sparks or even fireworks for me, the twinkling of eyes, all of the things you can get when you're in love. I felt it with him.

Young love, indeed.


I wrote this random paragraph about how I was charmed by my Sun's gestures.
       "I will never forget the hugs I get from my love, so warm and loving that I can't resist.
That kiss of his lips to mine, so dreamlike and fascinating, a taste of heaven it is. The way our hands intertwined, so unreal and overwhelming how I wish it's mine until the end of time."

 Young love, indeed.


To you my love,
Back in the day up to now and the days to come, I want you to know that I'll be still your Moon, I will always be here for you even if I'm not physically around. I am looking forward to more adventures with you. I love you this much.

 Young 'beautiful' love, indeed.

I don't get it, why?

Hi. It's me. Sorry for the incomplete introduction in my first blog post (April 25, 2017). Maybe one of these days I'll edit it and make it more informative. Anyway, I'm about to share some of my thoughts, things or happenings in my life these past few days, weeks, or months? I don't know. I'm not sure.

  Most of the time, people see me as a happy, jolly, or bubbly girl. Even my eyes smile too whenever I'm laughing or smiling. I crack corny jokes, I sing at the top of my lungs, and I tell stories endlessly, have a lot of friends, doing good with my studies and everything. I'm also the type of girl that doesn't want the people around her feeling sad or worried. Despite these things, sometimes I will see myself feeling confused, bad, alone, and all the negative emotions combined. Well, it is completely normal especially during adolescence period, but as I grow older these emotions are getting worse. It's like a big black shadow crawling and getting inside me and destroying all the happiness I have. I don't get it. All of a sudden, I feel sad, horrible, just so bad. Worst is alone. Some people are telling me to be okay or to feel good about myself and everything in between. I tried to, I always try to but the pain is bigger. I don't get it, why?
Sometimes I even see myself crying at night asking why am I suffering this way. Why should I feel the pain of the things that's already done? The pain of having a broken family, the pain of people betraying me, the pain of someone leaving me. Why? These things that happened to me already happened a long time ago, the latest was about 3 yrs ago. And I already forget about it all, still, fate finds it's way to appear in my mind and wave a hand at me. And then I'll wake up worse in the morning and when I jump out of the house I'll be fine again, then in the evening, I'll be that problematic-nothing-to-say-nothing-to-react-girl again. And the cycle goes on and on each and every day.

From a positive person during the day to a weak one during the night. Again, I don't get it. All I want is for the pain to stop.

I actually have noticed that even the small things can make me sad. I will not be specific but it does. Maybe it's just me overthinking or something. As I have already mentioned, this shadow is making me weak and fragile. It's getting worse. I don't get it, why?

Welcome to my life!

Hi! Nice to meet you. Welcome to my first Blog. My name is Moon. (not my real name) I'm turning 17 this coming 22nd of May 2017. I came from the Philippines. I'm a girl who loves adventures and thrills in life. Contrary to that hahaha, I don't like sports. Upcoming senior high on June.

 Just so you know my blog is random. Most of my posts will be like an e-diary or e-journal. Obviously, I'm not good in English.

The reason why I started blogging is that I want to free my minds with the thoughts that I couldn't say or share with someone I know. As you can see, I have trusts issue. You'll know more about me day by day, post by post.